Today has had it's ups and downs. My mood has been variable at best, but mostly a bit down. I thought long and hard before writing this post but I just need to say that moving anywhere, not least abroad to a country where you only speak a bit of the language can be a strain on you, your relationship and your mental health. Not to mention your finances and your pets!
I retired from the NHS after 30 years following what could be described as a mental breakdown and after treatment and leaving a job I had loved, but which had contributed, nay caused, my mental illness, our move abroad was our new start. Our way forward.
It still is our new start and our way forward, but some days are just more difficult than others. This morning seemed to start okay, but for no apparent reason I just wanted to sit and cry. I don't know what triggered it but I'd guess it's a combination of struggling with the language and missing my friends, a stupid argument about a gate and a bit of realisation of just how much stuff we need to do to the house over the next few years.
Anyway we talked about the argument. Hubby then went and hit fence posts into the ground and I went out into the garden and decimated Burassic park! It's amazing what a bit of hard work in the garden and achieving a goal can do for your mood.
I know that this is the right place for us to be. I know that it is our future, our new start. I know that it will not always be easy.
BUT......
I also know that with a prevailing wind, a large amount of love and a bit of hard work we'll have the most amazing life here in France.
Now... Back to the French language course...
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